36 weeks, day 3.
All summer, I sat like a bum on my bed and did absolutely nothing. I had no worries or cares in the world. September 4th was the day that all changed. Fall classes started back up this past Wednesday at Eastern Michigan and instantly I was overwhelmed with all the crap I had to do. I’m taking four online classes.. and yes, I do regret it. I thought I had an idea of what I was getting myself into but I really had NO CLUE. I had a mental breakdown. I just froze.
. . . then my mom reminded me of something. There are people out there that told my mom I wasn’t going back to school, there are people out there that have no faith in me and are waiting on me to fail. Well, first I just want to say, THANKS. You just gave me the motivation to keep going. I will not stop until I’m walking across that stage. I want my son to grow up and know that his mom never gave up. I want to make my family proud. But overall, I want to achieve MY goal.
So after a long day filled with a lot of emotions, I had my 36 week appointment and ultrasound. We got the chance to see Jaylen sucking his fingers on the big screen and it was ADORABLE! 😍
The nurse said she would check me next week to see if I’m dilating and she could strip my membranes if I am dilating. At first, I was all for it! I have the opportunity to give my body the push it needs to start labor and I could finally see my baby boy.. who wouldn’t be happy?! But as I did my research when I got home, I realized all the things that could possibly go wrong since I tested positive for group B strep! I need opinions!! Anyone out there? HELP! I have a week to figure out what I want to do and I’m freaking out!